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Aug. 26th, 2011

First week

First week of the program. I thought it'd be cool to jot down journal entries all throughout the program and look at it as time goes on.Kids are cool. First week, even though most of it should be a review for me, we bombarded with information. I've quickly made acquaintances whom I seem to mesh with proper. Getting into this kind of groove proved I need to get used to it. I felt a little fatigued by the end of the week. I've also decided to TRY and stay away from alcohol for the duration of the ENTIRE program. Yeah - we'll see how that goes.

Jun. 6th, 2011

Demon in a bottle

It's half past midnight
and I'm still awake
I really feel bad for anyone
that'll have to put up with me tomorrow.
But now, I've got this demon in a bottle.

I'll be brave for a while
I'll be stupid for a while
I won't be givin' a f*ck at all
Won't feel the pain when I fall.

Lemme at that demon's brew.

May. 15th, 2011


Just got back from hangin' out with the buds. Went out to eat A LOT of food and grab a few drinks. Nothing excessive, which was awesome. Now, imma hang with my other friend, Morgan and Hyde. We gon' jam.

May. 11th, 2011


About a week ago today I received the news that I've been selected to one of the programs I applied for. It's bitter-sweet, really. It's bitter that it isn't the program that I was wishing to get into however, at least, it will bring me to a better position. Deep breath. I'm excited!

May. 3rd, 2011


So alot of things happened this weekend. I had to watch the cousin's animal for the weekend; Bin Laden was finally disposed of, and I've gotten older. Overall it's been good. I'm often hard on myself because I'm convinced that I suffer from anhedonia but tonight I feel happy because I've gotten in touch with all the people I feel I care for. Maligayang kaarawan sa akin :)

Apr. 16th, 2011


Hangin' out with Bonjing today. Ddub's back home with a death in the family and Flabby's out on vacation at that dreaded place. Who knows what he an I'll be up to for the weekend. It'll be different than most anyway. It'll be good.

Apr. 8th, 2011


I've been trying to fall back asleep for over an hour now. You woke me up again. How can I rest when I've again realized that my mind is broken; That my life is broken; That my heart's been broken for years and years? I'd love to just rest my eyes, calm my mind, ease my heart just for a moment. Instead I lay here listening to the time tick away. I often ask myself "why even bother?" Just like X, I'm slippin', fallin', I can't seem to get up no matter how I try. I'm probably not trying hard enough.

Mar. 29th, 2011


Just fixed myself some nachos+tomatoes+sour cream+jalapenos+seasoned ground beef. Pretty good shit except for the fact that there was a whole ton of cheese in it that i wasn't completely comfortable with afterward. NNNAAACHOOOOOOO!!!

Mar. 28th, 2011


It needs to be over quick
This fasting's getting me sick

Need me some rice and good ol' noodle
i needs me some noodle!!!!

Mar. 25th, 2011

Cabin fever.

At my own house?!?!?

I've been cooped up in here for two days now
illness has confined me.

When is it gonna get warm again?!?!?

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