I've been trying to fall back asleep for over an hour now. You woke me up again. How can I rest when I've again realized that my mind is broken; That my life is broken; That my heart's been broken for years and years? I'd love to just rest my eyes, calm my mind, ease my heart just for a moment. Instead I lay here listening to the time tick away. I often ask myself "why even bother?" Just like X, I'm slippin', fallin', I can't seem to get up no matter how I try. I'm probably not trying hard enough.